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Out and Out Angst
Sometimes, you want angst: stories that contain sad, depressing themes or unresolved, emotionally distressing events that put characters through the wringer and make us feel for them. Typically they are dark stories that focus on emotional suffering. They might end on a happy or hopeful note, but you can't call them upbeat romances.

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Accioslash
•Miles to Go, R, 1,900 words.
Warning(s): (highlight for spoilers) *Depression and recovery*
Prompt: "I don't want any more of this try, try again stuff. I just want out. I’ve had it. I am so tired. I am twenty and I am already exhausted." ~Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation
Summary: But I have promises to keep, and miles to go before I sleep, and miles to go before I sleep. ~Robert Frost
Review: You can find a review for "Miles to Go" here.

Accio Snape
•Something to Live For, R, 32,917 words. Art by Mieronna at these links: In the Quiet Morning, Open to Interpretation, Constant Vigilance, and Need to - Want to - Must not.
Warnings: (chan) (highlight for spoilers) *Hurt/comfort, suicidal ideation, attempted suicide, chan, angst, major character deaths in alternative ending.*
Summary: Harry knew he ought to talk to someone.

Alchemia Dent & Bugland
•Pigfeathers, NC-17, 18,211 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Permanent gender change, angst, non-Snarry pairing, infidelity, dub-con*
Summary: "Why the hell did I choose to do this? Maybe there was a potion that could have changed my mind instead of my body, so that I'd have been all right with it. I could have stayed with Ginny then, and be everything she wanted in a man, instead of being an outcast of a woman who was so lonely I cared what a murdering traitor thought of me."

Atrata
•Not Quite Kissed, R, 1,559 words.
Warnings: (Chan) (highlight for spoilers) *Chan, wall!sex*
Summary: Severus remembers. Then he forgets.

•Hits The Ground, R, 3,200 words.
Warnings: (Chan) (highlight for spoilers) *implied non-con, channish,*
Summary: Snape comes back from a Death Eater meeting, and his Issues manifest in a decidedly ugly way.

Beth H./BethBethBeth
•Himself His Own Dungeon, NC-17, 6,395 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Disturbing content, rimming, non-Snarry pairing, infidelity.*
Summary: Snape isn't quite as dead as everyone thinks. Neither is Voldemort.

Cluegirl
•Blood and Fire, NC-17, 35,000 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Rape, torture, breathplay, knifeplay, coercion, and references to slavery and suicide.*
Summary: After the deaths of Dumbledore and Voldemort, Severus Snape must learn to cope with yet another Master; Harry Potter.

•Let All Mortal Flesh Keep Silent, NC-17, 37,173 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Dark, BSDM, violence, slavery, breathplay, bloodplay, character death, rape, torture, multiple pairings, non-Snarry pairings, and much angst.*
Summary: When the worst case scenario is just the beginning of the fall, when you can lose all you loved and still keep losing more, when all you thought you'd be has become a mockery, when you have hit the rocky bottom, that is where, sometimes, you can find the strength to triumph at last.

Cruisedirector
•Absolution Series, NC-17, 22,019 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *BDSM, Bondage, Dom/Sub Relationship, Fetish/Kink, Mental Illness, Rimming*
Summary: Still reeling from the Unforgivable Curse that ended the war, Harry asks Snape to help him deal with the aftermath of defeating Voldemort.

Drachenmina
•Her Eyes, NC-17, 18,000 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Dark themes: mention of rape, torture and psychological damage. Possibly slightly gruesome. And whimsical.*
Summary: Post DH AU. Severus Snape is the only one who can heal the injuries inflicted on Harry by a vengeful Bellatrix Lestrange.

Ellen Fremedon
The Long Summer Trilogy:
•Returns of the Day (read review here), NC-17, 2,848 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *None listed.*
Summary: The castle is under siege, and Harry is skulking in the dungeons.

Ellipsical
•Forethought, R, 2,458 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *angst*
Summary: Severus reflects on the end of an affair

Ellipsical
•Afterthought, R, 3,450 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *angst*
Summary: Harry reflects on the end of an affair.

Empathic Siren
•At the Heart of Things, NC-17, 12,256 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Infidelity, miscarriage, non-Snarry pairing, angst*
Summary: After being forced to bond five years ago, domestic tranquility does not reign in the Potter-Snape household. Severus thinks he's found something better, only to realize everything he's lost. He decides to prove himself to Harry one day at a time.

•The Thief and the Sorceress, R, 5,992 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *High-risk pregnancy, discussion of abortion, childbirth, angst*
Summary: Sequel to At the Heart of Things.

Flora/Florahart
•Containment, NC-17, 16,100 words.
Warnings: (Chan, Harry is 17)(highlight for spoilers) *Drama, crack, chan, smut*
Summary: It has been a long road, and Potter is tired.

•A Matter of Intent, R, 7,300 words. Read review here.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Character death*
Summary: I don't know how much more I can tolerate. It must be nearly at an end, but one thing is certain: by the time this is done, I will be broken.

Gatewaygirl
Finder's Fee series:
•Finder's Fee, NC-17, 5,007 words. See review here.
Warnings: (Chan) (highlight for spoilers) *Chan 16-18, Dom/Sub Relationship, Hogwarts Years*
Summary: In his seventh-year class, Severus mentions how rare basilisk scales are. When Harry leads him down to the Chamber of Secrets, Severus notices some unexpected reactions.

•Spy's Game, NC-17, 18,360 words.
Warnings: (Chan) (highlight for spoilers) *Addiction/Drug Use, Bondage, Chan 16-18, Character Death, Dom/Sub Relationship, Hogwarts Years*
Summary: After their encounter in the Chamber of Secrets, Harry finds himself wanting more from Snape. With signs indicating a traitor in the Order, they soon have more to think about than basilisk scales and sex.

•Winter's Sport, NC-17, 13,733 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Addiction/Drug Use, Ambiguous Consent, Bondage, Chan 16-18, Dom/Sub Relationship, Hogwarts Years, Suicide/Attempted Suicide, Threesomes*
Summary: Harry and Ron continue to fight about Bill; Snape sneaks Harry off to London for some decadent fun with a side of danger.

•Wizard's Weapon, NC-17, 19,115 words.
Warnings: (Chan)(highlight for spoilers) *Addiction/Drug Use, BDSM, Bondage, Chan 16-18, Character Death, Dom/Sub Relationship, Hogwarts Years, Violence/Torture*
Summary: Dumbledore does something to Harry's scar, but no one is sure of the effects. As the war heats up, Harry become more determined to find out....

Genius Artist/Opaquevision
•What Remains, Else All That Matters, NC-17, 7,666 words. Read review here.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Angst, dubious consent, rimming, and a snarly bastard!Snape.*
Summary: An unexpected reunion some years after the war, and many wounds -- old and new -- still need healing.

Gin Tonic/Me Midget
•With Time, R, 10,000 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Mentions of rape, mpreg, and abortion.*
Summary: Harry has to deal with the trauma of being raped and choosing to have an abortion. Snape, as the training supervisor at the company Harry and he work at, gets a call from Harry's healer and decides that something has to be done.

GMTH
•Conversation With A Stranger, NC-17, 5,725 words.
Kink/Fetish: Role-play, public sex
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Angst, public sex, role play, alcohol/potion use*
Summary: Sometimes, it's easier to talk to a stranger than to a friend.

Ishafel
•Conjure-Man Read review here, NC-17, 2,547 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *None*
Summary: Where do you look for a ghost but in the city of the dead?

Jay Tryfanstone
•The Puppet Master, NC-17, 6,995 words. Read review here
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Ambiguous Consent, Multiple Partners, Non-Con, Non-Snarry Pairing, Threesomes*
Summary: Moments after the last battle, a man clings to his own soul.

Juxian Tang
•Damage Control, NC-17, 29,772 words. (Sequel to Amanuensis' And Just Plain Wrong)
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Hurt/comfort, rape, non-con*
Summary: Snape tries to control damage, until damage starts controlling him. Sequel to And Just Plain Wrong by Amanuensis.

•Plight, NC-17, 8,332 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Angst, non-con*
Summary: Once, a long time ago, Snape turned down a suitor. More than twenty years later Harry has to deal with consequences.

Loupgarou1750
•Dangling Conversation, NC-17, 17,008 words.
Content/Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Character Death, Dark, Mental Illness, Angst*
Summary: Harry has one promise to keep before his war is ended; to make Snape pay for Dumbledore’s murder.

Maeglin Yedi
•Penance Is The Play, NC-17, 66,506 words.
Warnings: (Chan) (highlight for spoilers) *First-time, hints of manipulation, coercion and a dysfunctional relationship. Harry turns 16 during the story.*
Summary: Harry wants revenge. Harry has a plan. But is Harry Slytherin enough to avoid his own trap?

•No Good Deed, NC-17, 53,884 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Angst, hurt/comfort, first-time, small amount of domestic violence, excessive use of the Killing Curse on a few minor characters.*
Summary: After the war, Harry wants answers. Snape's willing to give them. For a price.

Majenta
•Say It Properly, R, 4,471 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Angst*
Summary: His name finally cleared, Snape returns to Spinner's End following the aftermath of the war. An unexpected visit leads him to believe that his life may not be quite as empty as he had thought.

Mandy/geneticallydead
•Yearning, NC-17, 22,552 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Angst and more angst. But it turns out well in the end*
Summary: Harry buries Snape at Godric's Hollow. As he was in life, so he would be in death. Alone. But not forgotten.

Megyal
•My Kind of Guy, PG, 1,936 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Unrequited!love, angst*
Summary: Harry is a happy-go-lucky kind of guy with a boyfriend; Snape is repressed and teeth-grittingly, fist-clenchingly jealous because Harry likes him but doesn't like him.

Mosh
•Through the Trees, PG, 1,964 words. (Site registration required) Read review here.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *None listed.*
Summary: Snape endeavours to wake Harry up.

Nimori
•Fall into Charybdis, NC-17, 16,802 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Incest, drama, first Time, humour,*
Summary: A tale of the further woes of the Boy Who Lived -- who, having escaped the monster Scylla, has fallen into Charybdis (Charybdis being he of the hooked nose and greasy hair). Which is all a terribly pretentious way of saying out of the frying pan, into the fire.

Nym
•Shattered, NC-17, 80,000 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Dub con, forced bonding, angst*
Summary: Post-OoTP fic in which Sirius' death never happened. During the final battle Snape saves Harry's life, but with a very particular spell that has long-term consequences for both of them. One of them is that Harry needs to be close to Snape and so Sirius installs them in one of his houses and leaves them to deal with it.

Perfica
•The Care Of Infants, NC-17, 14,297 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Drama, angst, romance, de-aged.*
Summary: A curse from Voldemort regresses Harry to infancy. Snape must protect him while the Order tries to find a way to reverse the spell.

Persepolis
•Reconciling Lily's Eyes, NC-17, 52,175 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Het, Non-Snarry Pairing, Object Penetration, angst, drama*
Summary: Had Harry known "bonding" with his former professor would lead him to three different countries, a hastily-planned wedding and his pants around his ankles in Snape's sitting room, he wouldn't have quit his day job. Or…maybe he would've… What it's like to fall in love with someone you absolutely cannot stand, who happens to still be in love with your mum

•Epilogue for Lily's Eyes, NC-17, 10,479 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Fetish/Kink, Mpreg, Drama, Established Relationship, Humour, Romance*
Summary: The best part of falling in love with a man who's in love with your mum's eyes is never having to take off your glasses. Chronicles the first (mildly insane) sixteen-odd years of Snape and Harry's life together.

Perverse Idyll
•When the Rose and the Fire Are One, NC-17, 81,000 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *(HBP but not DH-compliant) Violence, rough sex, character death (not Snape or Harry)*
Summary: Harry's haunted by guilt. Snape's warded by roses. Each must free the other in order to free himself.

Rex Luscus
•Wormwood, NC-17, 15,518 words. (SS/HP/RL)
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Double Penetration, Threesome, Captivity, Interrogation, Torture, Dark!Harry.*
Summary: It's after the final battle, and Snape is lucky Harry and Lupin got to him first.

Sansa (Also known as Libby Drew)
•Mute Appeal, NC-17, 3,100 words.
Warnings: (Chan) (highlight for spoilers) *Chan*
Summary: Harry's lost an important ability. He can't speak. But Snape can.

•Splinter, NC-17, 11,200 words. Read review here.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Angst*
Summary: Harry's still determined to save the world. Snape's determined to accept it as it is.

•A Series of Outtakes from Splinter: Warning, Watching and Watching, R, 477 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Angst*
Summary: Snape and Harry's first meeting - set before Splinter; An unwelcome reminder - set two years after Splinter, and; The fight continues - set five years after Splinter

Snapetoy
•Unhealthy Fascination, NC-17, 4,759
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Ambiguous Consent*
Summary: Harry overhears something that really makes him curious.

•Scab, R, 766 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Unrequited love*
Summary: Sometimes life is a circle and the act of living a pattern of unbreakable habits.

Starcrossed/Starcrossedkayla/Kibatsu
•Anachronism, NC-17, 96,000 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Abuse/Violence, Non-con, Non-Snarry pairings*
Summary: Upon waking up, Severus finds himself not recovering from Nagini's bite, but healing after a long-term mysterious illness. Not only must he uncover the mystery of the cause of his affliction, but also deal with his lover, who is the very last person he wanted to ever see again: Harry Potter.

•Nights of Gethsemane, NC-17, 350,000 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Non-con sex, dubious-con sex, explicit male/male sex, explicit male/female sex, GRAPHIC torture, slavery, language, drug use, drug addiction, bondage, and much angst.*
Summary: Harry is a prisoner of the Dark Lord and Snape his prison guard. Completely cut off from the outside world, Harry struggles to hold himself intact as he is forced to rely on Snape for everything. Yet Snape may not be all that he appears....

Switchknife
•And Tell Me Who Is Victor, NC-17, 10,000 words. Read review here.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *violence, war, angst*
Summary: Harry's journey from student to journeyman to soldier to veteran, with Snape as his tutor and partner in the field.

TC Regan and Sophie Richard
•An Unconventional Relationship. Direct link to Part 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, Epilogue, NC-17, 46,627 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Abused!Harry, obsessive need to clean, mental illness.*
Summary: Harry's time at the Dursley's has left him with some rather odd quirks that only Snape can help him work out.

Tradescant
•Fidelius, R, 1,751 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *None listed.*
Summary: Harry, all at sea and out in the cold.

Tradescant
•Secret Keeper, R, 1,730 words.
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *None listed.*
Summary: Severus Snape is kind of tense. Companion to 'Fidelius'.

Ziasudra
•No Sex, No Galleons, NC-17,
Warnings: (highlight for spoilers) *Forced prostitution, Angst, Dark, Hurt/Comfort, Multiple Partners, Non-Snarry Pairing*
Summary: Captured and convicted as a Death Eater, Severus Snape wanted death. Instead, he found himself condemned to a life of prostitution. Post-war. Also SS/RW and SS/Various. HBP-compliant.


Updated June, 2013.